Checking In

Ah, jeez, haven't blathered about new little intrigues or clutched fearfully at new disasters in a while.  Well- it's a couple days to Halloween, I'm working on my costume as well as trying to play catch-up with videogame art (Sooo glad the dude's being nice on deadlines- this week was exciting what with the one cat recovering from surgery and the other one somehow getting his nose chewed to pieces and everyone needing wrangling into cat-carriers that they don't want to get into!)

Anyway- I had a little mini-breakdown because my forbearances are coming to a close, I have no job and I can't- I can't pay my bills for very much longer but neither can I afford to be forsworn.  I'd love to be able to say 'if I pay thee not in gold, I'll pay thee in silver,' but I've got neither coming in and *holding up a lock of hair* copper's not worth much these days.  So- I've gotta find something.  Even when I had the job, it wasn't going to be enough to pay all my bills with or without the forebearances.  My dad says this is just hitting me harder because it's my first big disaster and I'm kind of staring into the abyss without a lot of it mirrored in me yet, I'll get through it and survive worse before the end.  I hope so- the thing is, I wanted to *not* start off with a major handicap like, say, debts, notations of missing or late payments, and the like.  Seems to me such things are a black mark against your name, and if I'm not stellar, I at least set store by being blameless about some things.

Which is kind of hypocritical of me, I know- I'm all for second chances, I'm just kind of knee-jerk ashamed of needing them myself.

I'll figure something out.

One thing- I think if I had my druthers, I'd do something like the videogame concept art, or costuming, for a living.  That's the sort of stuff I can do if I've got materials and space, or in the case of concept art someone I can ask questions of to tease out what they really want so I can patch and quilt and blend things to come up with something that really fits and gives the desired effect.

If I could do that for money, I'd be a happy girl.

Happier Notes- Halloween

On a lighter note- I'm *really* making progress on my costume^^

I decided the greaves made it too hard to move, so that's not too much wasted- they were fun to make, just a pain to wear under a skirt.  I boiled and drilled holes in a bunch of chicken (and some pork rib) bones, and some of them are on my belt (along with a little Crayola-clay Venus-figure painted like stone) and some are on a necklace^^  I finished the little short bodice, which was a little too loose to be completely self-supporting but holds nicely with the addition of some cross-the-back shoulder straps.

I finally figured out the right way to fit my Dental Distortion Razorbacks, so now I've got some good yellow tusks to go with my green skin and grumpy brow^^  Now I just need to get my damn wig (wool yarn in pantyhose) to stay in place long enough to style it up before Saturday.

I think this'll work out nicely^^  I may improve it some for ACen or whatever Event-With-Costumes I can afford to attend next, but it should be worth the effort of turning up to my friend's party and parade on Saturday.