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Weirdlet ([personal profile] weirdlet) wrote2010-11-17 01:45 am
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Yeah, Sure, What the Heck-

Yoinked variously from Beckyh2112, Avocado-Love, Attackfish, and Suzukiblu.  Have at it, folks- I shall do my best to answer.


I think it would be fun to talk about stories, but the usual memes are like, "What happens next?" "Tell me about Character A?" Which isn't so much talking about stories as it is writing more of a story. But you know how sometimes you read something and you're like, "I got ___ out of this story, I wonder if I have that right?" or "What on earth was ____ supposed to be?" and it's too awkward to ask the author? Now you could totally ask!

I've heard people say that writing is hard because you have to make decisions, but we never really talk about the decisions we make with stories or why we make them. We talk about plot bunnies, but not about how we actually turn them into a story.

And it seems like a lot more fun to do that than to do working.

So, if you wanted, ask me questions! (Or use this to ask your flist to ask you questions).

What were you trying to do [here]? Why did you decide to ____? This is what I thought about xyz, is that what you were going for? What made you write ____? Why did you decide to do this? And so on.

[identity profile] attackfish.livejournal.com 2010-11-17 02:31 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm curious about what the appeal of mpreg is to you? (not usually my crack, but I love yours, and I'm right in the middle of writing That Damn Mpreg)

[identity profile] weirdlet.livejournal.com 2010-11-17 06:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Hm. This is one of those where I'm both delighted to be asked, and dreading because I have to actually come up with an answer.

Here's the thing- pregnancy in general has fascinated me ever since I was miniscule. I read books on it. It became one of my major fictional and personal kinks as I got older, though not all-consuming (I like plenty of other things as well). I could list any number of analytical reasons that it strikes a chord with me, but at least to my mind, at the end of the day a kink is something that, for whatever reason, does it for you, and you work around it from there.

That said, I understand that it's not always a 'good thing' to happen to a character- the circumstances, process and results can be hugely conflict-raising and/or terrifying. And me being me, I also have sort of a thing about snatching some shreds of good or joy out of a tough bind, so I like seeing characters do that. The blending of toughness and tenderness to see it through and keep up afterwards are also kind of a thing for me. And it's not always a guaranteed result, even if that's the ending I (fictionally) much prefer.

Add into that a long-time thing for genderbending and genderblending, and the movie Junior was not my first inspiration. It just let me know "Oh-! So I'm not the only one who thinks about these things- even if it is rare and open to be mocked."

(It's not anything really personal for me- I feel pretty solidly female and happy with it- but I enjoy playing with the 'what ifs', and some of the 'explore through this different shape, but in the end, we end up looking prettymuch like each other'. I twitch a bit when GLBT-fetishism is mentioned, because I really don't want to be doing it at the expense of anyone else, but damnit, it's my imagination and I can play with things here like space, time, physics and sex.)

Where was I? Appeal of mpreg- okay, now that the big psychologicals are out of the way. I like seeing what happens when one contrasting situation is applied to another- Enemy Mine is another great example, going the hermaphroditic route rather than a straight 'reality goes sideways or gets a flimsy excuse to go on vacation' example. You take two enemy soldiers, strand them together so they have to learn to live with each other- and then you take one of the big situations of life (children) that's usually left behind the lines, or deemed irrelevant to a tale of high adventure, and make it so it's right out there in the open, and important to their understanding of each other. Plus, baby + wilderness survival = the stakes just got higher.

Also, going to the kink side of things for a moment- fertility and virility in one, is also a thing for me, as well as strength/toughness and the 'softness' of carrying and caring. It's sort of a physical and emotional decadence that I love experiencing in fiction.

...I'm hoping that you can get some coherent explanation out of all that- I think the shortest answer I ever came up with was in the 'why do you like' section of that mpreg meme I did once. Two parts kink- one part fluff. One part angst. One part puzzle of how do I make this silly idea fly in whatever universe I'm applying it to. Two parts tough-guys with ready-made soft spots, plus all that emotional and social contrast stuff I blabbed about. Babies do not automatically make everything better- but sometimes it's wistful to see what happens.

[identity profile] attackfish.livejournal.com 2010-11-17 10:15 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm very glad pregnancy in general isn't one of mine, as I can't get pregnant. However, gender and gender norms really really are, so when I connect with mpreg, it tends to be there. Lots of authors, though not you, tend to use mpreg as a way to have their slash and their heteronormative 70s romance novel ending too. And it just sticks in my craw. As I said, I'm writing That Damn Mpreg, at the moment, and also arranging my sterilization surgery (I can conceive, but I can't carry, as I'm allergic to my own progesterone, and it would kill me within a month, according to my doc) so pregnancy is on my mind, as is reproductive emotions. I found myself surprised at how unhappy I was about having the surgery, that I had know I would need since I was really little, and it reminded me how much of our ideas of womanhood revolve around motherhood. My misery wasn't about not being able to have a kid, but about not being normal, and having my body not fit. Right around then, I started writing about a pregnant trans man. Coincidence? I think not.

As for fetishism, I have my best friend the trans man egging me on to write, which soothes my cis guilt some. (he's just so happy to see something written by a cis person about a trans character that isn't about the transition or specifically about being a trans person, and he's my best friend, so I don't know if his approval speaks to quality or not). Your mpreg is less disgustingly heteronormative than most portrayals, which puts you ahead, right?

[identity profile] weirdlet.livejournal.com 2010-11-17 10:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks^^ I figure half the fun is actually playing it- well, straight isn't exactly the word, but in-character. Even heteronormative stuff can be all about the 'This is *not* helpful, right now!', even if the perceived/preferred norm is that they all live happily ever after, la de da.

*hugs* It's definitely one of those norms that's pervasive- everything living wants to breed, even if individuals can have very good reasons and desires not to. A lot of our behavior is built up around it, to the point where it remains even when the core reason becomes irrelevant. I choose to see it as the creation and raising of the next generation being the important thing- the methods used to do so are diverse, and none inherently better than the others, so long as it results in a happy, loved next-gen.

[identity profile] weirdlet.livejournal.com 2010-11-18 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
And because I always think of better ways to put things long after the fact-

*hugs* Not having your body be the way you want it to sucks.

[identity profile] attackfish.livejournal.com 2010-11-18 03:59 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah. there's that. But I do think it has a lot to do with having my body not fit an internalized norm. *shakes fist at society* Seriously, I know I can adopt. I want to adopt. I'm used to being disabled. *shakes head* do not get my self sometimes.

[identity profile] weirdlet.livejournal.com 2010-11-18 08:18 am (UTC)(link)
Head can know something cold, but you can still get twitchy doubts and feelings you wish would fall into line. It's all a process, as my ol' mum says.

[identity profile] gamiel.livejournal.com 2010-11-23 08:31 pm (UTC)(link)
I was wondering how did you come up with the Ozai/Maleficent crossover/paring? and are you planing to writhe anything more in that universe?

[identity profile] weirdlet.livejournal.com 2010-11-23 08:47 pm (UTC)(link)
There was a Disney Fusion meme over on suzukiblu's writing journal, and I had recently seen a drawing on deviantart that had me looking at Maleficent in a whole new way- this one, in fact. http://browse.deviantart.com/?qh=§ion=&global=1&q=sexy+maleficent#/d1b0i9e

And it just seemed to me they were a very aesthetically pleasing pair, and then Maleficent got all smiling on me and Ozai had this oh-shit-I'm-going-to-die-and-I-might-like-it look on his face and they've been together ever since.

As for if I intend to write more- I'd love to, I've got a few fun images in my head, but it's not gelling completely.

[identity profile] gamiel.livejournal.com 2010-12-07 08:19 pm (UTC)(link)
I hope you will get the right inspiration, I like that crazy crossover.

[identity profile] gamiel.livejournal.com 2010-12-13 12:57 am (UTC)(link)
A new one, what fantasy'vers have your favorite interpretation of orcs?

[identity profile] weirdlet.livejournal.com 2010-12-13 01:30 am (UTC)(link)
Hm. Visually? I'd say probably the LotR movies (Jackson, not Rankin-Bass), just because, of the versions I'm familiar with, that was the first I saw and the most unapologeticly badass. Big, grungy, scavenged and cobbled and very clearly combining don't-give-a-fuck with it-works-it-sticks. Plus the Uruks were just awesome.

Although, for sheer musical talent, Rankin-Bass can't be beat...

Writing-wise, well- it's hard to pick. I tend to like hard-nosed, badass, stubborn warriors whom everyone think are savages but who do, at the heart of it, have their own culture and ideals of what's civilized. It might be to challenge your bridegroom to hand-to-hand combat at the wedding, but it works for them. I don't play WoW, and in a lot of things orc culture/orgins/whatever is left open beyond 'they're the basic danger to your peasants and minions to your bad guy, and they're ucky'- so a lot of my interpretation is just me in my head going 'hm, I don't like that, I *do* like that- yoink!'

[identity profile] gamiel.livejournal.com 2011-01-24 10:31 am (UTC)(link)
have you seen this?
http://scans-daily.dreamwidth.org/2711195.html

[identity profile] weirdlet.livejournal.com 2011-01-24 10:38 am (UTC)(link)
Oooh, that must be issue 3! I'd only seen #0, 1 and 2 before.

[identity profile] weirdlet.livejournal.com 2011-01-24 10:39 am (UTC)(link)
Addendum-

*BWA* hahhahhahhahahahaha! Oh my god... Good stuff.

[identity profile] gamiel.livejournal.com 2011-03-17 12:40 pm (UTC)(link)
A suggestion of orcish reading material -
‘Wrath & Rage: A guidebook to orcs & half-orcs’ to D&D.3, published by Green Ronin publishing. First edition 2002

‘Gundabad’ to middle-earth role playing, published by Iron Crown Enterprises. First edition 1990

‘Gorgoroth’ to middle-earth role playing, published by Iron Crown Enterprises. First edition 1990

[identity profile] weirdlet.livejournal.com 2011-03-17 08:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Ooh, neat